Sunday, December 20, 2009

Hard to Believe

One of the things we have been so grateful for during the past 19 months are the kind words and prayers of family, friends and a whole lot of folks we don't even know. These blessings are touching, strength-giving and much appreciated. Thank you so much...


Sadly, I have yet more disappointing news. Nicol miscarried on Thursday. Physically, aside from the normal affects of miscarriage, she's doing fine. Emotionally, both of us are pretty sad. 


It's just really hard to believe.

102 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry. I'm still praying for you all.
Johannah

6HartsforHim said...

Praying for you all.May God grant you peace and wrap his loving arms around you all as you mourn.

Blameless said...

I don't think I could put into words just how sorry I am for both you and Nicol.

I know the pain of loss...but more importantly, I know the pain of not understanding (yet). Even with a deep faith--one that has been tested and strengthened--there is so much we will never understand this side of Heaven.

Please know that your family will remain in my prayers during this devastating time.

Hugs to Nicol,

Sarah

King J's Queen said...

I am so very sorry.

Amber said...

(((hugs)))

You and your beautiful wife are in my prayers!

Amber

Mrs. D said...

I will be praying for your hearts. I'm saddened to hear this. So sorry.

Anna said...

I'm so, so sorry. There are no words.

Think of you guys often and love any update I can get, but so sad to hear this latest one. Praying that Jesus is near you during this difficult time.

Bethany said...

I am so sorry.

Penny said...

Sending tender hugs, I am SO sorry to hear the news. Sometimes impossible to see God's plan for our lives when we are in the middle. I am so so so sorry for your loss right now.

Cling to the cross and your faith as you journey through the darkness. There are many praying for peace in your lives....

Erika said...

my heart is breaking...i am so so sorry. i just keep thinking "why?!?". i will pray - you are all in my thoughts & prayers every day, i promise you that. we love you.
Erika & Family (from Delaware).

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. Our baby was stillborn in 2008 (cord accident), and I have been following your story since Luke's passing. I am so so sorry. My hubby and I will pray for and your family.
Jo

Mocha with Linda said...

Oh Greg & Nicol,

I am so sad to hear about another miscarriage. My heart hurts for you.

Jennifer said...

Greg & Nicol,

I am so so sorry. We will continue to pray for you both. Remember that Jesus can identify with all that you are going through. He loves you all so much. I pray that God will fill you with His peace and comfort you.

In Christ,
Jennifer

Holly Aytes said...

I am so sorry to hear that. Praying for both of you at this time.

krista said...

there are absolutely no words. my heart hurts for you. asking the Lord to comfort you in a way that only he can. i cannot imagine your sadness. i am so sorry for the loss of this life.

momof4kr said...

I am in disbelief as well.

The only thing I can think of to share is a quote that I read on Matt Chandler's website (a favorite pastor of mine in the Dallas, TX area).
It said:
"There is no security in what God is doing, there is only security in who God is”

Another one is "Even when you don't understand God's hand...you can always trust His heart."

My prayers are with you and your family.

Love in Him.

goldstar said...

God is very present in your troubles, though it is hard to see Him at times. My prayers are with your family.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you both. May God comfort you during this time.

Shannon said...

Greg, I am so sorry. I will be praying for you and your dear wife. I just experienced my 3rd m/c in 6 months and God is using the pain to turn my eyes heavenward. I am so, so very sorry.

Praying,
Shannon

Aim said...

my heart breaks for you. We don't always know what God has for us when we are in the deepest part of the valley but He promises that it's for our GOOD! I know you probably already know that. Will be praying for you!!!!

www.aimrogmerritt.blogspot.com

Happy Mama said...

My heart is breaking for you all. I wish there was something to do or say to make your heartache disappear, but of course, we know only our Creator can work such things. I will be praying for you and Nicol as you walk a road all too familiar. Cling tight to His mighty hands.

Sending love and prayer from Colorado...

Jess said...

Wow...I'm so saddened to hear. Praying for you all during this time, as you draw strength and comfort from our God. Much love.

Anonymous said...

So very sorry! Continuing to pray for you all.

Melody said...

Greg & Nicol, words cannot even express how very sorry I am. I am praying for you both and lifting you up to the only One that can heal this hurt.

Shelly said...

I am so sorry:( Word cannot express how sad I am too at the loss of your baby. I can't understand why this happens to people. I am praying for you during this difficult time. Rest in the assurance that Jesus has you in the palm of his hand.

Rebekah said...

I've never been able to get pregnant, so I certainly won't pretend to understand what you are going through, but as a fellow parent, I am praying for you as you experience the loss of a child once again.

May you experience the inexplicable peace that only God can give.

Stacy D said...

Greg, I am so sorry. I was so excited to see that you and Nicol were expecting again, and am just really sad with you guys to hear that she miscarried again. I will continue to pray...

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry for your incredibly painful loss. You are both in my prayers. Approximately 10-15 years AFTER suffering two miscarriages (and MIRACULOUSLY carrying baby #2 to full term) I learned I have Hashimoto's disease - an autoimmune Thyroid disease. It's actually pretty common and treatable and only ONE of the MANY 'symptoms' of it is multiple miscarriages. More info can be found at http://thyroid.about.com/.

Praying, Sarah

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry, I'm crying with you both! That really sucks! Praying for peace. I know that this is such a hard thing to go thru.

Love to all, and I know there are no words in your minds at this point. I'm so sorry!

Hugs from Indy!

Sherrie said...

So, so sorry. Those words seems so inadequate.
Sending you hugs and praying for you.

Dana said...

I'm so sorry. I am praying for you and Nicol.

The Thornton Family said...

I am in tears right now. I'm so sorry for your loss. This has to be so hard on y'all - I just really don't know what to say so I'll just pray.

Thinking of you.
Stacey

Anonymous said...

He still knows your every heartache and identifies with them.
Blessings today and always.

Much love--

Julie Doody said...

So SHOCKED and SADDENED by your news!! I know God has a plan and purpose for everything, but I just don't get it. You guys do not deserve all of this! I pray his strength will sustain you!

I will continue to pray for you!

Love in Christ, Julie

Anonymous said...

Greg and Nicol,

I do not even know what to say......I'm not experiencing anything similar to you, but am wrestling with God in certain areas of my life and trying to reconcile painful events with his goodness. (I would love for you to post your thoughts on this sometime).

"So we do not look at the troubles we can see right now.... For the troubles we see will soon be over, but the joys to come will last forever" 2 Corinthians 4:18

Storming the gates of heaven for you-

Annise (Zeeland, MI)

Laura said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your baby! We will continue to pray that God would carry you through this very difficult time in your life. Praying that you would continue to feel the love and support of your family and friends.
Laura
lkrooswyk at gmail dot come

Pam said...

May God hold you in His strong arms as you totally lean on Him. He cries with you and listens to the prayers of His people as they pray for you.

Lynette said...

I'm so very sorry - I have been there and know the absolute heartbreak...
Holding you in prayer,
lynette x

Kacie said...

Oh Greg and Nicol.... I am so, so sorry. I weep with you, though you don't know me and I can't really understand your pain. I weep with you.

Nancy B. said...

Ohh my heart breaks for you both! I am so very sorry. Sending prayers & hugs your way!

Pipsylou said...

It's times like this when life just seems so upside down.

I don't get it.

I, too, just lost our third baby this year, a few days ago.

Just wanted you to know you're not alone...

that you are never alone.

Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry. I know that does not begin to touch how you feel- but I am. You all are in my prayers.
Love,
Amber

Mel said...

praying...

Jenn said...

I'm so very very sorry. I have been there and there are just not words. Praying for your family.

Heather said...

That is terrible news. Praying that your family finds peace during this difficult situation.

Anonymous said...

Our thoughts and prayers go out to you both. Unfortunately, we know the pain, confusion and anger you are both going through in regards to miscarriages. We finally got our 2 little ones we think with the help of prometrium and a baby aspirin a day. We KNOW with prayer and love our babies made it here into our arms. May God's blessings be evident and comfort you.

Anonymous said...

My heart is heavy and saddened for you & Nicol. Katy

The Design Girl said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss. I will say a prayer for you.

glw0605 said...

I'm so very sorry for your lose. My prayers are with you and Nicol in this difficult time.

Laura said...

I've been reading your blog for a long time now, but I've never commented. You and your family (extended and all) have gone through so much in the last few years, that I just didn't feel I had any words to significantly express how I felt for you or that would really make a difference to you. But, I just feel compelled to comment today. I am so desperately sorry for the loss you and Nicol have to face again. My heart goes out to you, and many prayers are being sent your way. You have an amazing amount of faith (I wish I had that much faith) and this faith and your family will yet again, bring you through this dark time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry about yet another loss! The following was in a card I received recently. I thought it might be of encouragement to you also.

Keep on trusting Him!
Catharine

When there are no easy answers...
When you are facing something you thought you would never have to face,
When you wonder how you will ever pick up all the broken pieces . . .
God is there for you!

He will bring you through--not somehow, but triumphantly!

Katherine said...

I don't know what there is so say except I'm so very sorry. It's monumentally unfair.

Jess said...

I realize there are no words, Greg.
I'm so so sorry and will be lifting you both up in my prayers.

House of Collinsworth said...

I am so so sad to hear this news. My heart is breaking for both of you. I don't know if you saw my comment on your last post...but I have had 3 miscarriages and one stillborn. They finally did some blood testing on me and I have Factor V Leiden which is a blood disorder. If I ever get pregnant again, I will have to take shots throughout my pregnancy. Mind you, I had one healthy son with no pregnancy complications at all. But all my others have ended tragically. Please consider having Nicol tested for this (if she hasn't been tested already). I'm sure you will need some time to process everything. I'm so very sorry. The only thing that can possibly make you smile is to imagine Luke with his 3 little siblings together at Jesus' feet.

Michelle said...

I check on your blog daily, my heart is so broken for you and Nicol this morning. Prayers are going up for you both....
Michelle
Arkansas

ME :) said...

Oh I am SO very sorry. Will be praying. Sunshine

Robin said...

I am so very sorry. I have been praying for you and your family. I wish there was something to say that would help but I guess it is in times like these that we just cling to Him because there is simply nothing else we can do.

Laura said...

I am so sorry to hear this and I pray that the LORD will give you peace and strength during this time.

Love to you in Christ,

Laura from Florida

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for you loss. May you feel God's presence in your grief.

Allie in AZ said...

Oh, I am just sick for you. My heart just sank...

What a terrible thing. I am praying for you.

My deepest sympathies,
Allie in AZ

Marley's Mama said...

No, no, no. As one who has walked in your shoes, I know there aren't words to take away the pain. Please know that my heart and prayers go out to you, and I would hug you if I could.
~Megan in MI

sheila said...

I am so sorry. So sorry. May God continue to strengthen you and Nicol through this and lean on him. God's not forgotten you and has great plans for your family; I know because your family has ministered to me through your heart and Nicol's music. I heard a song on the radio the other day and just knew the words were flowing from Nicol's mouth. Such emotion and love. In God's Love, sheila

Kristin said...

I continue to lift you up in prayer.May God blanket you with peace during this time.

Anonymous said...

SO sorry for your loss. I know what it does to the whole holiday season. You are both in our prayers. Hold onto Jesus, even if it seems He isn't there. He truly is and He weeps with you. God bless.
jenny in Idaho

amyengle said...

you all have been on my heart and now I know why ~ I am so sorry for your loss. My husband and I had a miscarriage in March - this was our 2nd pregnancy loss - we had 4 healthy babies in between. It is beyond any physical pain I have known and even after almost 9 months, there are still such hard days and moments. Even though we grieve and feel this loss, we have such great hope (desperate hope as Steven Curtis Chapman describes it) for the day when we can hold our little ones.

I am praying for you - that you would feel love and peace from our Father and from those around you.

God Bless

Anonymous said...

You and Nicol were heavy on my heart this am and I hadn't read your blog for awhile, now I see why I am burdened within my soul for you! You are and will continue to be in my prayers! I love you all!

Detroit Neighbor, Steff

Donalyn said...

I was thinking of your family and praying for you tonight at church. The music really had me remembering the Christmas concerts we have enjoyed with Selah here in the Southern Tier of NY, and how they ministered to us and helped make Christmas really special. I pray that you will all feel surrounded by His love right now and trusting in Him, when there is no human understanding that can give any solace. Love you guys and will keep you in my prayers through the days to come.

Kelli said...

I have no lofty words of comfort. I do offer prayers for God's comfort and love to surround you and Nicol!!

Smileyface said...

Praying for your family. May you literally feel God's arms holding you all close to Him during this time.

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure how to pray for you. God clearly could have prevented this loss (and the others), but did not. It's like when you asked for prayer during Luke's burial. All I could do is just go before the throne, weeping in silence, before the mystery and immensity of God, who has trusted you with this experience for His own purposes.

Anonymous said...

this is more than disappointing. please dont lose hope...

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Lisa D :) said...

I am so very sorry for your loss...and am keeping you & Nicol in my prayers.

Beth said...

You are both in my thoughts and prayers. We have suffered 5 miscarriages in a row....at times seeing heartbeats on ultrasounds with little ones moving around...and even finding out if the baby was a boy or girl. It was so hard not knowing why....after many tests, no reason could be given. At this moment, we are 26 weeks pregnant and very hopeful and prayerful. Don't give up. Talk to your doctor....Lovenox, Prometrim, and a daily baby aspirin are what we have done different this time.

Praying for your family.

Tami said...

Praying for you.

Anonymous said...

I am so, so sorry. I have had a stillborn daughter (cord accident) and three miscarriages-one this summer very late in my second trimester. I am so deeply saddened for you. I lost our baby this summer on my birthday, and as I read your news so close to Jesus' birthday, I felt a twinge of His sadness for you-as I felt such loss on my own birthday. Know that He grieves with you, cries with and for you and has not forgotten you. Your welcome home party to Heaven is going to be spectacular when you are greeted by all of your precious babies. We are praying for you.
A mommy and daddy in Louisiana

Anonymous said...

I am so so very sorry. I am at a loss for words that you are again having to mourn and deal with such loss.

I will continue to pray for your family.

Virginia

Emily said...

Nicol and Greg! I am heartbroken by your loss! I will continue to pray for you! I hope you can find comfort that you are in His hands! Lean on Him and each other!

Susan said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss! Praying for you always!
Susan Simpson

m said...

ouch...can you imagine facing this without God?? It is hard enough with Him!! A piece of my heart is with you, but more importantly my prayers are with you!!

Pipsylou said...

Just keep coming back to check on you guys...know you are in my daily prayers.

I am ready for 2009 to be over, after 3 pregnancy losses this year. I am sure you feel much the same.

iheartbowheads.blogspot.com said...

I am so sorry - you are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts are with you...our daughter has just had her fourth miscarriage, and it's frustrating and saddening all at the same time.

Praying for peace and comfort and acceptance. With much love, daisy.

Delilah said...

My heart is breaking for you both. Praying for your family... those here on earth, those in Heaven, and those yet to come.

StaceyD, ringgold GA said...

I am so unbelievably sorry for what you and Nicole are going thru. Our prayers remain with you all. I pray that God carries you through this to peace and blessings ahead.

Sonja said...

I was so sad to hear your news. My husband and I understand, first hand, the emotional pain of losing several babies and our hearts go out to both of you.
I had 5 miscarriages, before our doctor discovered that I have Factor V Leiden (something that I had never even heard of). In a subsequent pregnancy, I took daily injections and delivered a healthy baby boy.
I'll be praying for a peace to come over the two of you, that can only come from the Holy Spirit, and that God will give you and your doctors wisdom on what steps to take next.

The Asquad said...

I would love to say, "I can't imagine how you feel!" but I can't!! My heart breaks for you all and my prayers are being lifted for you!! I just can't believe it either!! (((HUGSSSSS!!!))) My new motto is, "I shall never question His will, just will always be amazed by his timing!!"

Ruth said...

Heard you sing @ Arlington Pregnancy Center"s Celebration...where your brave hubby got up and told us all you were in the throws of a miscarriage. How he could even speak was amazing to me. I was crying and praying the whole time. We prayed for you, your baby, for your family....and my husbandand I prayed for you, every morning. The APC news came out later that you had indeed lost the baby.I've never known what to say at times like this. I have a grandchild who is sitting onJesus' lap right now...Lost through abortion. Maybe thinking of sweet little Luke and the one not even born as being with Jesus...being rocked by Jesus...being loved by Jesus, will help. Someday I will see my grandchild for the first time..You'll see your babys, too!
In His precious love,
Ruth

Deb D. said...

I am so sorry. So very sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

My heart breaks for you. I can not imagine the pain you must feel. I pray that you will feel God's grace and goodness. ONe of the few things that has eased my pain after the loss of my baby in September was to KNOW that one day my family will be restored to me in heaven. I believe God will give back the years the locusts have stolen. God bless you. I ache for you and for all who have lost children.

MiniMe Mom said...

I am so sorry.

Not much more I can say than that.

You are in my thoughts and prayers and have been for a long time.

mamma2 said...

I have a friend who has started a blog for women who have had a miscarriage. The website is http://www.beauty-gladness-praise.blogspot.com/
My friend has had several miscarriages and she feels God leading her to help other women through the pain.

Anonymous said...

I just checked in on your blog since I haven't in a while and wanted to tell you and Nicol how heart-broken I am for you. It is times like these when I wish that God would just give us a little glimps of his plans for our lives before we have to walk through the journey.

I am praying for you and your family...praying that you are able to literally feel the loving arms of God wrap around you as you struggle to navigate these waters.

MelanieWJ

KarenH said...

I'm SO sorry to hear about the loss Greg and Nicol.

I lost 3 babies in a row from Dec 01-June 02. Testing showed I had hypothyroidism.
After my doctor was comfortable with my hormone levels I was given the okay to try again. It took nearly a year to get pregnant but our (4th) healthy baby girl was born in 2004.
When she was just a few weeks old we drove to see Selah sing at Falls Creek camp. I am very grateful to have found their music when I did, it got me through a difficult postpartum recovery.

I pray you'll have some answers soon but in the meantime I pray you'll be given peace and strength.

Pipsylou said...

Just posted about you two on my blog. Had 3 miscarriages this last year and things have been rough, dealing with a daughter with special needs as well.

Just wanted you to see it: pipsylou.blogspot.com

Thanks for being such an encouragement in the midst of your pain. You will never know just how much it means.

Well, maybe you will. Someday, in heaven, I will be able to give you both a HUGE hug...and meet Luke, too. What a day that will be!

Ashley said...

I am so sorry to read this post. I pray that God would continue to be present with you and faithful to you as you grieve, yet again. I pray that His purposes would be clear to you, and if that is not His will at this time, that He would bless you with faith and trust when it seems that all has failed. I continue to pray for great blessing in the life of your family...

Expat Mom said...

I'm so sorry. I have 4 angels up in Heaven and I know how devastating it is. Sending hugs from a stranger.

Denise said...

I am so incredibly sorry. After losing our son to SIDS in 2007, we didn't know if we had the courage of trying again. In 2009 we were surprised with a pregnancy and m/c at 8 weeks. We went on to have 2 more m/c in 2009 and are hoping that we are blessed with another. Lots and lots of prayers

Chris Lee said...

I don't know you. Just found your blog through my attempt to put our child's Nerf hoop together. Just wanted to say I'm so sorry.

Marley's Mama said...

Still praying and thinking of you...

The Princess said...

I'm sorry to hear about this. We will continue to pray for you all.

Ed and Jenn said...

Hello,

I have never commented, but I do enjoy your blog, though I am new to it. I have read Angie's for several years. I am so sorry for all of the miscarriages that you all have experienced. I would encourage you to consider adoption at some point...you seem like wonderful people and perhaps God has other plans for you to build your family. There are 143 million orphans in the world and He desperately needs Christians with loving hearts who are willing to care for them. I have no idea if this is something you have thought about or not, but wanted to encourage you to consider it. Perhaps it might be an open window to what may be a closed door.

Blessings,
Jenn