Monday, March 2, 2009

On My Mind : 3209

I went to see you today
Except you weren't there
But you were
And that's why this is all so dreadful

We miss you so much
We love you so much
We can't wait to see you again
A moment that won't come soon enough

The wound in our hearts is still fresh
Like the earth that covers your grave, yet covered with grass
The grief remains, at times, raw
Like the frosty, wind chilled air this morning

I remember your sweet smile
On the morning of the day you left us
I remember how it brought me to my knees
And I kissed your precious cheek

Your smile will never leave us
Your eyes still talk to everyone who sees your pictures
You are such a gift
Even though you're gone

I know you are well
More alive than ever
Daily... embraced by your Father
Daily... kissed by the Savior

I miss you son
Momma does too
Your sister as well
You are always, always on our hearts and minds

One day I'll see your sweet face
One day I'll kiss your precious cheek
One day... a much anticipated embrace
And time will never run out

Summer and I went to a basketball game the other day
With your Uncle Todd and your cousins
I missed you there
It wasn't the same without you

It's been almost a year since you came to us
How can it be?
You left much to quickly
We love you son

See you soon

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing your heart and hurt Greg. It isn't easy always putting yourself out there and having people judge your every word. Thank you for being willing to be open to the pain of your son leaving you before you felt ready, and the pain that people toss at you in their own pain. I really enjoy reading the cute things that Summer says...she seems to be a pretty incredible 2 1/2 year old. (I know what I am talking about too since I have 4 kids.) I pray for you all I hear your heart.
Johannah

Joanne said...

The loss of Lukie is powerful. The suffering must be so lonely. He should be here, he should have been there playing with you all. Oh God, comfort his family. I don't know how,but you do. Tears trail down our faces as we hear (we want to hear) how it is in their hearts and minds as they are able to speak of Lukie being gone.Show up God please, I have know idea what that will look like for them....you do.

Misty Rice-Baniewicz said...

Blessings to your broken heart.

Beautiful poem/letter..... it hurts to see you guys hurt so much. I envisioned his smile each time you mentioned it.

I remember that stuck with me in one of your post when it all happened. You had said that he was in his swing, and sometimes you would walk right by him, but this morning you walked by him, he caught your eye, gave you a big bright eyed smile and you stopped in your tracks and kneeled down to kiss him. Not knowing it was your last day on earth to kiss him......

I have that vision carved in my memory forever...... because of that, I never go a moment, day, night with embracing, kissing and holding my two children. Thank you for helping make me a better mother.

Praying for comfort on your heart and soul more tonight!

God Bless.

Happy Mama said...

Oh, my heart breaks for you right now. There's nothing I can do to help ease the burden except to pray for heaven's embrace upon your sweet family. We wear our Luke reminder bands and pray for you guys throughout the day as we are led to. Although his time here was much too short, Luke has touched many people, including us, perfect strangers. Some day we will all rejoice together in our Father's house and get the chance to tell Luke and your family how you've changed our hearts for the better. Until that day, hold tight to the Lord and your sweet memories of little Luke. On my knees in prayer for your family tonight...

In His Grip,
Ashley

Anonymous said...

Greg, the words to your precious Luke are so beautiful. Tears flow. I pray for you and Nicol often. I never hear her gorgeous voice (played often in my home) that I don't stop and pray for you...that God would comfort you in your grief. Words seem empty. Many who you do not know hold you in their hearts and prayers. God bless you and keep you.

Elizabeth in Illinois

sheila said...

I know the waves are crashing around you as his birthday nears. I continue to pray for peace and light in the midst of your storm. God be very near to the Sponberg's, every hour, minute, whisper to them your love and peace. May the contenance of the Lord shine around you. In God's Love, sheila

Blameless said...

Thank you for sharing your heart. Luke's story and his smile will never be forgotten!

I pray often for your family's hurt as you await the day when you will once again hold him and kiss him...in the presence of the Lord.

Sarah

Amy Louise said...

My prayers for you will never stop. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Julie D. said...

What a beautiful, heart breaking poem! Thank you so much for sharing. My heart continues to ache for all of you!! I that the next few weeks will be especially difficult for you all. My prayer is that God will give you the Grace and Peace that you need!!! I will continue to keep you all in my prayers!!

Love in Christ, Julie Doody

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your feelings. Many men don't even open up to their own loved ones and here you are being so transparent for everyone to read.

Unfortunately I understand your pain, how every week you wonder what they'd be doing, saying, looking more like! What milestones would have been achieved...and so on and so forth. The wondering never stops. It'll be 7 years for us......she was 5 mos old! It's just hard to even type this without getting upset.
God bless-Roiann

Tina and Todd said...

Greg & Nicol,
My heart continues to ache for your loss ... I can't even say more right now - I am so sorry!
Tina

Kristy said...

Oh, this post is so painful and beautiful - and I know there are no words to express what I feel. I can picture it - your reunion with him in heaven - what a sustaining and wonderful thought. As always, your family is in my prayers.