Here are some of the very first pictures I took of our little man, Gregory Luke Sponberg, on the evening of March 17, 2008.
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Lukey, just minutes after delivery... actually, at this point we knew his first name was Gregory but we didn't decide on 'Luke' until about two hours later (incidentally, we chose Luke because of it's meaning - 'one who brings light'... hence, 'light your world')... anyway, I remember thinking 'hurry up already and get some clothes on him, it's freezing in here!'... of course, the nurse probably could have finished her job sooner if I would have stopped interrupting her with all sorts of questions... I can also remember walking back and forth, making several trips between Luke and Nicol, seeing if he was okay and checking on her as she went thru all the normal post-op stuff related to the c-section... she wanted me to stay with him so that he wouldn't feel alone, so that he'd have a familiar voice nearby... she was SOOOOO brave that night, more beautiful than ever, and totally thrilled with the arrival of our son.
One of my favorite pictures of Luke... so peaceful... such a gift... truly a sacred moment.
Big sister and baby brother... she was so cute with him from the get-go... wanted to hold him all the time in those early hours after his birth... and as you can see, he didn't mind!
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We miss our little man so much,
we have missed out on many beautiful moments and milestones over the past 10 months,
we will miss out on countless more as the days and weeks and years go by,
we have learned things about ourselves and others and life and God not otherwise possible.
We remember him today,
we celebrate his 71 days with us,
we should be having his first birthday party,
we will visit his grave instead.
This feels so wrong,
this is not what we ever envisioned or planned for,
this is unimaginable heretofore,
this is why we are grieving with hope.
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We would love to read stories about how Luke's beautiful life has impacted you... if you knew him in any way, or even if you only know of him thru this blog or because someone told you about him, please share with us how he has touched you or someone else that you may know.